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[#o1] Welcome to this blog of loneliness
[#o2] Don attempt to ask about my post
[#o3] Whats here remains here and of course ur cyber footsteps
[#o4] Tag before you leave or i will be alone
[#o5] No vulgarities or i will snowball u
[#o6] Leave if you're unhappy since this is for emoing
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The One Left Behind...

my name is none of your concern.. it is only with my friends and only them..if you really wanna call me by something, call me killergunner.. i am juz your normal sadist.. with nothing much.. lives a boring and no life life.. life is so sad until you find the ONE but yet she makes everything worse at times..
DOB: 24May91 currently in NJC.. lol sch of muggers? no.. actually its a sch of dying ppl.. from stress? lack of sleep? basically any reason u can think of..

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My Pets

Likes & Hates

i hate backstabbers, ppl who gets on my nerves and many typical things which ruins my life..

i juz love anime, emo stuff, daydreaming, blue and others? and of course..


Pathetic desires...

TIME with ...
Good A results
Good friends

perhaps more in the future..


Spare me a word?




GoodBye

currently no one.. mind being the first?


My Past

  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • December 2009




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    Saturday, April 25, 2009

    the broken

    tired.. I am really very tired.. unreasonable demands.. unreasonable wishes.. unreasonable desires. this world is full of unreasonable stuffs that we have to do, have to strive for but the ironic thing is that I don really even desire any of it.. it's just my responsibility.. it's just my character.. it just me.. those that I really wish to do, wanted, desire, wished for, never came true. countless of times, I have hoped.. hoped.. and hoped again.. only to have my hopes and dreams crushed and trampled upon.. is this world really one that makes you happy? strive for happiness, think positive, it will come true one day, if you placed enough hard work, results will appear.. countless of times I have heard these words.. no matter much I tried to believe, eventually it will numb as such words ever shows the truth is says.. that is if it holds any truth within.. the real is the fake.. the fake is the real.. so which one is real and which is fake..

    I am tired of everything. I want to throw down everything and just die. nothing seems real to me anymore. a day is a dream. or should I say dreams seems more real than reality. is this really reality, one which crushes all your hopes and dreams? if that is so I rather that I stay asleep for eternity and never to awake again. tired.. I wanna give up.. I wanna forget.. if only time can be reversed.. nothing like this sort would have happen.. I would avoid it.. prevent it.. if only..

    i know what you mean.. i know what you are saying.. i know it.. i just know it.. even before you say that word.. even before you thought of it.. the moment you look at me.. i knew.. but its still hard to accept it.. i know.. escaping is never really a way to solve the problem.. over time the problem will ascend.. it will get worse until it can never be solved.. but still.. still.. i tried.. i really did.. i am really tired.. tired of all this.. cant everything just restart? or just let it end..

    dreams are meant to be enjoyed..
    not to be mixed up..
    reality are meant to be slapped straight in your face..
    not to be missing from your life..

    to start, take efforts..
    to continue, takes even more effort..
    but..
    to end it, it is torturous..



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